Bear Creek: Reprise...
The days are short this time of year. My mind is slow, foggy. A mix of a cold (and hence Long Covid symptoms exacerbated) and general fatigue. It is hard to find things to talk about, positive things at least...
In these moments, where I doubt myself a little it can be useful to spend some time in the past, to look back at my 'greatest hits' (and some not so great) and enjoy the photos, the memories and such - as well as reflecting on what they have taught me, here in the present, that I can use to step forwards.
Bear Creek never really went anywhere - quite literally as it had no fiddle sticks. It is the forgotten 'two point plan', born before Pont-y-dulais had even left my workshop - exploring the option of alternative settings in a similar footprint. Looking back at these photos I think it shows what is possible when creating expansive stories in a limited space - the textures combined well with the watercolour backscene, but the lack of operational interest and the very poignant and direct connection to my Dad (the Shay) was, in hindsight, always going to mean a short life. It was quickly sold and the space went on to be used by Paxton Road and the N gauge journey that has carried me forwards...
So as I sit here pondering what next, I can feel confident that whatever follows will build on my experiences. I am confident that some layout themes and genres are 'done', finished - whilst others continue to peek my interest, and that these quiet, reflective moments, facilitated by low mood, are a useful opportunity for growth - by remembering what I have achieved so far, and being open to new opportunity and experience. Until next time, more soon...
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Hi James
ReplyDeleteYes the weather is not conjunctive to positive thought but hope things improve soon.
I always liked Bear Creek and for me it was a shame you did not develop it more. Perhaps a couple of fiddle sticks would have helped. However from my memories/photos of the Pacific Northwest it had all the right atmosphere. It also reminded me of the Cook Transfer Reload Wye on Simpson's woods railroad or the Camp A Junction on Vancouver Island's Englewood Logging railroad, amongst others
Given the quality of the modelling I hope one day you might return to this prototype in some form or another.
Best regards
Alan
I think I explored these logging projects in an attempt to make a connection to Dad. To understand better something he had an interest in, something I had previously ignored. I found the prototype very engaging but sadly for this and probably future similar projects, just a little too raw, like picking at a scab and finding the wound hasn’t really healed yet…
DeleteI’m learning to find my own path.
Hi James.
ReplyDeleteI really can empathise. I feel sluggish and fuzzy headed at the moment. The dull, grey weather, (seemingly) never ending rain, and short days, don't help my mood and enthusiasm for even those things which should bring me great pleasure.
But, if it is of any consolation to you, the fact that I gave my daily visit to your blog does give me one small window of positivity and joy each day. So thank you for sharing. The impact you have may not be seen, but I assure you, it is definitely there.
I find the vast majority of my modelling interests are about connections with people and places. I suspect most of us are similar. Sometimes, those memories and emotions are very strong. But we can put things 'back in the box' and come back to it at a later date if necessary. Finding your own path is the an excellent way to describe it. Just try your best each day...... Whatever that looks like, it is good enough.
Thank you Dave, we keep going don’t we… and learn every day.
DeleteOff to write the Friday update now…